Even Though my Only Child was Miscarried, I am a Mother

  • Christina Kelly
  • 10/23/2022

Photo by Christina Kelly

After being married for only about 2 months, I started feeling some early pregnancy symptoms. When the pregnancy test confirmed our suspicions, my husband and I were overjoyed even though we weren't expecting that to happen so quickly, and we weren't as prepared financially as we would have preferred. Nonetheless excited, I ordered gifts for my parents, siblings, and best friend letting them know they were now grandparents, uncles, and aunts. 

A Rainbow for Baby Gabby

Just a few days later, I began bleeding and cramping. Fearing that I was having a miscarriage, I still went to work. While driving home from work, I saw the most vibrant double rainbow I've ever seen. I was near a Catholic church where we often attended, so I stopped there to take some pictures. Then I listened to the song Over the Rainbow/ What a Wonderful World by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole. The version I listened to starts off with him saying "K this one's for Gabby". My husband has said that he would like to name a daughter after his Mom, Gabriela. At this point I wasn't sure if I was having a miscarriage or not but I thought Gabby would be a good name for the baby if a miscarriage happened since it could be Gabriela for a girl or Gabriel for a boy. When I got home the rainbow was still there in all of its splendor, so my husband and I were able to see it together. We saw it as a comforting sign from God. The baby's due date was Saint Patrick's Day so we chose the middle name of Patrick/Patricia.


A few days later, a doctor confirmed that I had miscarried. We miss baby Gabby but find comfort knowing the baby is in heaven with Jesus. We are looking forward to hopefully meeting him/her in heaven someday. I like to imagine baby Gabby playing with our other beloved family members who have passed away. 


Even the Smallest of Lives Matter

When people claim the unborn are not human or don't have any value, they're denying the very real loss that people who have suffered miscarriages experience.


 We need to acknowledge the dignity and immeasurable worth of every single human being, including the smallest among us- the unborn. As soon as conception happens, a new unrepeatable human comes into existence. Women pregnant with their first children are not "mothers to be" they are already mothers. I am grateful to God and to baby Gabby for making me a mother.

Pro-Life Utah actively influences pro-life legislation in Utah and offers numerous financial and practical resources to women and babies. Visit pregnancychoiceutah.org to see the resources that we offer. If you are able, please consider donating so we can continue in our legislative work and support for women.

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